in my reverie

well, you may or may not know, but i find the tinest littlest insignificant things the BEST. i also have a thing where i over exaggerate everything like way out of proportion. so when i find something really small and unessessary, it usually MAKES MY DAY. i get insanely overly excited about teeny little things. (and that is not an exaggeration.) like really. and i just think it's the most amazing thing ever. and i read into things way too much.

i just felt i needed to explain myself a

bit to tell you this story

otherwise it might not make sense.

or something.

so i got off work a little late this evening and stopped on the way home to get a crappy dinner and take home. its rainy and cold and late and tiring. so i come home to a dark and quiet house. it was actually nice for a little bit after the day i had. i'm sitting there by myself eating dinner....(oh quick sidenote: i ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND, HATE when people eat ALONE. like my heart breaks into millions.) so i'm eating my wendys alone and just starring at my kitchen quietly going through my day. looking around, thinking wow, i really don't ever want my life to be this way. i can just picture myself in 10 years...going home to my lonely apartment after work, eating chicken nuggets, alone in my quiet home. living a boring routine life. (i hate routine.) sad. just a sad life to picture. and i know there are some out there living this way. i want someone to share my dinner with, talk about our day, someone to say "i love you" to before i go to bed (other than my wonderful mother...love you :)
as i'm beginning to think about living this life, i picked up my chicken nugget from wendys and looked down and it was the shape of a heart. i just had to smile. ironic maybe, but these are the little insignificant things that make my world...alright. it was like a little sign, YOU ARE LOVED. and i know that fully well. so thank you, it was a nice little reminder. no, i do not have a boyfriend, husband, fiance...a man really, but i have the Lord, my family and friends. and i'm am oh so grateful in more ways than imagined.
a tiny little nugget made this evolve from my head. this is where i over exaggerate and get completely overly excited.

so ya i totally am a believer in the
SMALLEST THINGS ARE THE BEST.
and you will never talk me out of it. it's just a part of me.

and me is all i can be.