hey mom,

i love you.

just thought you needed to know again.

love,

me

uhhh, move on already.

i am really really happy,

even if it seems that i am not.

just that part of my life

is all over the place, literally (haha)

everything else is growing and loving :)

at least i can say i create laughter everyday.

usually laughing at myself.

well if i can do something,

it's keeping myself entertained. that's fun.

thanks for the snow cone tonight, mom. you are my favorite.

i knew it.

you might just be the one

that is suppose to get me

where i'm meant to be.

and thats it.

and that is a reality i'd rather not face.

couldn't i just live my life through expectation.

that i expect to see you soon, so i will.

and when i see you, you are smiling.

i expect to be in your thoughts, so i'm there.

i expect us to be together, so we are.

i expect you to love me, so you do.

there is no reality in that.

therefore, we are none of these things.

i'm tired of "there's other fish in the sea"

what is that.

the only fish i want is swimming in another ocean.

i will go a million miles to get to there.

i'll meet you there someday.

i will.

will you wait for me?

i'll leave you with that.

i'm off to illinois this weekend. i'm super excited to be leaving the state of indiana if only for a little while. i'm looking forward to a nice little road trip. HOWEVER, sleeping at last will be playing a show like the next city over from where i will be sunday evening. ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!! and i can't even go. hmmpf.
it will still be good. then i will be anxiously awaiting tuesday to start my new job. aaawesome.

and if someone will take me to that swing, i'd probably marry you :)

love. love. love.

You are stronger than you think.

Today,
July 23, 2009 at 5:27pm
I got a very important phone call.

It told me
that I got
the job.

I am living my dream(part of it :) and I'm really happy
!!!!!!!

Life is good,

God is BETTER.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my best friend, mother, and the most beautiful woman I know.

MNBH,

Today is your birthday! How does it feel to be 37? (as you've been telling me the past week) I hope today is amazing for you. Hopefully one of the best birthday's you've had seeing that you are at work right now doing something you love! It's so very good to see you in a position that you want to be in finally. I knew it would come! And then we get to hang out! I'm so happy that I get to hang out with you on your birthday!!

Lately, I don't know what it is, but I have really stepped back looking at my life a lot. And you are always the first thing I see. I CANNOT even explain the gratefullness, the love, the laughter, and blessings I have from you. These past 19 years, you have shown me love, passion, happiness, and everything in between. What a huge support you have been to me. You have had to be a mother and a father to me. And look at you, you are amazing. You are the strongest person I know. I wouldn't trade anything for the past 4 years. Every year we grow closer and closer. We have had some of the best times of my life together, you and me. More than likely most of them were us finding the most insignificant things absolutely hilarious. And that's one of my favorite things about you. I have someone who's just like me to laugh with, someone who thinks the same things are funny so I'm not the only one laughing, someone who I love to be around allll the time. "Who has more fun than us?!!"

I could absolutely not no way not in any form ask for a better mother. You are BEAUTIFUL. I tell you that everyday and you better believe it. I am beyond beyond blessed to have you in my life. Thanks for being not only my amazing mother, but also my very bestest friend.

I love you right up to the moon, and back.

Love,

Mic

:)

AWESOME.

one love is all this heart is yearning for