why can't it be that simple.

Why?

People are a hard thing to understand. But that's just something you never figure out. I guess for me I am constantly asking myself why people do the things they do?
It all revolves around where they came from, & where they've been. Because that has made you who you are.
I know the things I have been through in my life have taught me things I wouldn't know otherwise. What I am wanting to rant about for a bit is....
Why you try to give so much to someone & suddenly they end up taking it, tear it up, & throw it back in your face before you even realize what happened? It hurts.
I can never ever say enough that the people in my life are my EVERYTHING. absolutely everything. & I would do anything I could for them. Why? Because I love them and thats what you do when you love people.
Why is ok for people to take advantage of that? I want to do good things for you because it pours out of my heart. It makes me feel happiest if I can make someone else happy.
When you have lost 2 of the closest people in your life, that changes you. That changes you as a person, it changes your view point, it changes your mindset. Because of this reason, the people in my life are the most important because as the clique saying goes "You never know when people will just disappear from your life"....or something like that. They all mean the same thing. So when someone comes into my life, I get attached. I attach very quickly because I don't know how long you'll be around. If its 2 day or 2 years, etc, whatever the case may be, I get close very quickly. One of the worst & best things about me. If you were me, you would be the same. Nothing will change that. It's who I am.
I want to talk to the people in my life everyday. I want to see them everyday. When somebody means something to you, thats what happens. Say what you feel everytime you get the chance. Don't let it pass you by. Tell people you love them. "Life is TOO short". So so so true. That's why I don't waste my time waiting for things to happen. If I want to be with you, I tell you, I show you, I do what I can. The least you could do is not push me away. I'm right here.

yes, you mean something to me.

.

this time I mean it when I say I'm done

.

This makes a beautiful life :

The most beautiful people we have known

are those who have known defeat,

known suffering, known struggle, known loss,

& have found their way out of the depths.

These persons have an appreciation,

a sensitivity, an understanding of life

that fills them with compassion,

gentleness, & a deep loving

concern.

Beautiful people do not just happen.

i have a secret.

i can't stop thinking about you.

new. prepare, its a long one.

Well, first I must introduce the new love of my life:

Squirrel.

I don't know how I ever lived without him.

He is my baby.

However, on the subject of fuzzy children,

we did have to say goodbye to our Madison.

She lived a long, happy 14 years & is missed

dearly. She is in a better place now & I still

think & talk to her often. She isn't suffering

anymore & that's the only way I can smile now.

I'm pretty sure she sent Squirrel to me.

Love you "Bunty".

I'm in another "in-between" stage in life. Least favorite place. But how else do you get from one place to the other. It always turns out fine :)

Looking to change a few things, hopefully soon! We'll see.

Ray Lamontagne is TOMORROW. IT IS GOING TO BE MIND BLOWING. details later.

I've had an off & on overwhelmed heart. No body warns you what it feels like to watch someone you've had in your heart move on without you. Everything happens for a reason, everything happens for a rea.......etc. Hindsight will always be 20/20. When I get there, I'll see it. Adele-Someone like you <-- made for me, I'm telling you.

After EVERYTHING though, I have forced myself into believing I don't want any of that. Marriage, relationships, love. & usually someone never has a problem reminding me why. But I think I still have a tiny bit of hope that I'll find it & be happy in it. But the other side is telling me I wasn't made to have that. I've made myself pretty independent, where do you even start? I'm still figuring that out.....or deciding if I want to..That's a long drawn out subject. Squirrel is the best company, love, better half I could ever have. So you'll have to beat that. Good luck.

ABOVE ALL,

HAPPINESS
IS HERE & I CAN ONLY BE

THANKFUL.

this just happened.

[10:04:53 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
[10:05:10 PM] tiffany greskamp: creep
[10:05:20 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: seriously. he just pushed me over the edge.
[10:05:24 PM] tiffany greskamp: ha
[10:05:28 PM] tiffany greskamp: did you say anything?
[10:05:46 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: noooope
[10:05:55 PM] tiffany greskamp: goo
[10:05:55 PM] tiffany greskamp: d
[10:20:48 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: fooorizzle
[10:20:56 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: im in a weird mood!!!!!!!!!1
[10:21:07 PM] tiffany greskamp: ummm you just said forrizle
[10:21:11 PM] tiffany greskamp: 0_o
[10:21:16 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: PAAAAAAAA
[10:21:21 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: I KNOW
[10:21:25 PM] tiffany greskamp: yo uwerido
[10:21:32 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: SERIOUSLY.
[10:21:38 PM] tiffany greskamp: lol
[10:21:41 PM] tiffany greskamp: howd your hair turn out
[10:21:52 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: BEAUTIMOUS.
[10:21:56 PM] tiffany greskamp: what????
[10:22:24 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: BEAUTIFUL + I DONT KNOW WHAT OTHER WORD I COMBINED WITH THAT
[10:22:27 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: FABULOUS?
[10:22:29 PM] tiffany greskamp: HAHAHAHAHAHA
[10:22:33 PM] tiffany greskamp: haha
[10:22:37 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: NOT SURE WHERE THE M CAME FROM
[10:22:49 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: HEHEH
[10:22:49 PM] tiffany greskamp: LOL
[10:22:57 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: BAHAHAHA
[10:22:57 PM] tiffany greskamp: i wish i was hyper like u
[10:23:05 PM] tiffany greskamp: im so sleepy from doing nothing ha
[10:23:32 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: YOU NEED TO HYPEREXTEND
[10:23:33 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: LOL
[10:23:42 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: BUT NOT YOUR ARM JUST YOURSELF
[10:23:43 PM] tiffany greskamp: thats a bad thing
[10:23:47 PM] tiffany greskamp: lol
[10:23:57 PM] tiffany greskamp: i dont understand
[10:24:03 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: ME EITHER
[10:24:09 PM] tiffany greskamp: did you inhale too much hair color today
[10:24:17 PM] tiffany greskamp: you make me giggle
[10:24:21 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: MORE THAN LIKELY
[10:24:31 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: I CAN HEAR YOUR GIGGLE THROUGH OUR TISSUE PAPER WALLS
[10:24:43 PM] tiffany greskamp: WHY ALL THE CAPS????!!??!?
[10:24:51 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: CAUSE ITS MORE FUN
[10:24:55 PM] tiffany greskamp: o
[10:24:56 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: AND IT LOOKS LIKE IM YELLING
[10:24:57 PM] tiffany greskamp: O
[10:25:01 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: TO GET THE POINT ACROSS
[10:25:07 PM] tiffany greskamp: IM IN A STORE AND IM SINGING\
[10:25:30 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: IM HERE WITH MY DAD.....& WE NEVER MET & HE WANTS ME TO SING HIM A SOOOONG
[10:25:35 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: & GUESS WHAT
[10:25:39 PM] tiffany greskamp: LOL WHAT
[10:25:43 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
[10:26:04 PM] tiffany greskamp: YOUR FACE SHOULD BE ON A CHRISTMAS CARD
[10:26:18 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: WHATS A CHRISTMAS GRAHAM! I WANT ONEEE
[10:26:29 PM] tiffany greskamp: CAN YOU GIIIIVE UUUUUSSSS DIIIRRREEEEEECTIOONNNNSSSS???? ....COMMMMMME BAAAAACKKK
[10:26:44 PM] tiffany greskamp: WOOOHAHAHHHAAAAA BLLALAHHAHH
[10:26:48 PM] tiffany greskamp: THAT SOUNDED A LITTLE ORCA ISH
[10:27:04 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: I WISH I COULD SPEAK WHALE
[10:27:09 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: MAYBE I SHOULD TRY HUMPBACK
[10:27:15 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
[10:27:17 PM] tiffany greskamp: LOL
[10:27:37 PM] tiffany greskamp: WERE LOOKING FOR HIS SON DINGO
[10:27:42 PM] tiffany greskamp: NEMO
[10:27:52 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: HIS SON BINGO
[10:28:00 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: NEMOOOO
[10:28:14 PM] tiffany greskamp: P SHERMAN 42 WALLABY WAY SYDNEY
[10:28:20 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: I REMEMBERED IT AGIAN!
[10:28:24 PM] tiffany greskamp: "ESCAP-E"
[10:28:36 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: HUH THATS FUNNY IT LOOKS JUST LIKE THE WORD ESCAPE
[10:28:55 PM] tiffany greskamp: OH LOOK ITS A PARTY WHO BROUGHT BALLOONS?
[10:29:04 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: CAREFUL WITH THAT HAMMER
[10:29:23 PM] tiffany greskamp: HO HO HOHO HOOO I LOOVE TOO SWWIIIIIMMM
[10:29:52 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: HEY CONSIOUS, AM I DEAD?
[10:30:20 PM] tiffany greskamp: D.A.R.L.A.
[10:30:39 PM] tiffany greskamp: YOURE REALLY CUTE BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOURE SAYING!
[10:31:17 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: SEAMONKEY STOLE MY $$$$$$$
[10:31:22 PM] tiffany greskamp: LOL
[10:32:20 PM] tiffany greskamp: GO TO BED
[10:32:28 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: NEVERRRRRRRR
[10:32:36 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: I ACTUALLY NEED TO WORK OUT...IM STALLING
[10:32:39 PM] tiffany greskamp: LOL OK 5YEAR OLD
[10:32:50 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: HAHAH DEVIL 5 YEAR OLD
[10:32:51 PM] tiffany greskamp: JUMP ON YOUR BEN FOR AEROBICS
[10:32:53 PM] tiffany greskamp: *BED
[10:32:55 PM] tiffany greskamp: HAHAHAHAAA
[10:32:58 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[10:33:10 PM] tiffany greskamp: I HEAR YOU LAUGHING AND ITS MAKING ME LAUGH
[10:33:13 PM] tiffany greskamp: UNCONTROLLABLY
[10:33:16 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: PAHAHHAHA
[10:33:17 PM] tiffany greskamp: IM GASPING FOR AIR
[10:33:27 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: WOULDNT IT BE COOL IF WE BOTH HAD BENS
[10:33:32 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: TEHEHTEHHE
[10:33:38 PM] tiffany greskamp: YEAH THEN WE COULD BE BEN BUDDIES
[10:33:46 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: AND JUMP ON THEM
[10:33:49 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: LOL
[10:33:50 PM] tiffany greskamp: HAHA
[10:33:56 PM] tiffany greskamp: HES CALLING ME RIGHT NOW
[10:33:59 PM] tiffany greskamp: SSHHH
[10:34:13 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJYYYYYYYYY
[10:45:36 PM] Michaela T. Thomas: IM GOING TO SAVE THIS CONVERSATION FOR MY WHOLE LIFE.

daydreamer.

I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.